So, What's Next?

Do you feel like your heart is jumping, your head is dizzy, your stomach has butterflies, and those things make you want to puke when you’re in love? Because I do.

It’s like you want to have something or someone for your own good and your own excitement. More over, what you do in order to have that something or someone is not just for you, it’s for the other people you love so much. You feel happy and exciting when you have found something that enlightened your brain and your heart. 

Sadly, there are time when it turns out to you cannot have that someone or something you want so much. Then you feel extremely sad and desperate. You cry at night and cannot sleep until the clock shows that it’s already three in the morning. You overthink and worry and what-ifs pop out in your head. 

Yeah, love is perplexing. 

Then when you have already have that one thing you want so much, you have that desire to make things good and stable. Moreover, you want to make things better and do the best. It’s like you are always thirsty and starving to add more good thing, more lovely thing, more excellent thing. You read, you ask, you discuss, you practice, you see, you listen. You learn. Until you have that feeling of orgasm. Too great to describe. You’re so high, you’re on climax. 

But love does always have to be tested, to be examined. You are asked what you love, who you love, what motive you have, and how it appears to be a thing named love. Then you struggle to defend, to maintain it good, to keep standing and alive. Then you win. Life is good. Love is good. 

Thank God J

Yeah, life is good. Love is good. That was a story about my relationship with Skripsi haha.. Then, I was just had my graduation day *yep another ceremonial thingy* a few days ago, three months after having my thesis signed by the board of examiners and declared to have graduated. To be honest, I didn't feel that extraordinary feeling everyone talks about on that graduation day, but to express my gratitude, I did it for my parents who have loved me and educated me all this time. After this, up to me, right? :p

Next question: what's next?